Work is stupid

Yesterday was nice, today was nostalgic. 44 ~ 45 more days more days to endure till I go 'bersek'. It wasn't as easy as momma said. Many waves of tension and twist of uneasiness. Damn the stupid feeling, but there is 40 plus more rounds for me to fight it. 1h & 15 there was nice back was shit, how I wish could be accompanied like in the morning. Papercuts here and there like a rag doll puppet how silly. Finally through the dislocated dark stairs, feeling rather creepy.

Nodding nodding...

Finally I arrived at angel's arms, feeling bliss again...

And back to heaven...

And angel suddenly turned into a nosiy tape recorder...Buzzing right beside your ears.

Now with the stupid hands of mine my eye ball is like fish ball, with strawberry flavour...Oishi~

:S

Monday...starts busy busy,don't feel like but have to.

Tomorrow...last day to enjoy.

Some people...pain in the neck, alienating?

Ernest...will be whacked by me, forever a slut bitch.

Temperature...hot cold cold hot cold cold cold very cold unpredictable? but cold. *sneezes*

A person...trying to get me, pushing away, no thanks

My mind...cold cold cold cold cold cold cold, work (T_T), tired, FOOD ~NYUM YUM~

Conclusion...wash hair,food,sleep hah!

Finale...peace,love love,ai ai ~lun-lun~

UFO?

-Alienate -

1. To cause to become unfriendly or hostile; estrange: alienate a friend; alienate potential supporters by taking extreme positions. See Synonyms at estrange.

2. To cause to become withdrawn or unresponsive; isolate or dissociate emotionally: The numbing labor tended to alienate workers.

Alienated, I'm being alienated...It's not the 1st meaning but the 2nd one -> To cause to become withdrawn or unresponsive; blah blah blah...I just wanna hang out with some good friends of mine...They seemed ever busy, I don't mean one or two...It's like everybody even in the freaking msn messanger, well I did went out with a friend yesterday. I don't mean that everything they do or what so ever they must tell me, it's like time and time I ask someone out it's never successful well yea sometimes it is successful. Again maybe I'm being my sensitive self again, complaining here and there making a shit hole fuss. Sometimes I feel like the extras in a movie, walking around pretending, people don't even notice you...Well, if what I say about my friends and life is wrong...Just 'shoot' me back.

I think I shouldn't expect so much from the people around me, since I'm already prepared to be spending my holidays alone at home playing the computer,sleeping,eating,watching tv, wasting my life...Awww how boring, well thats my life, boring and uninteresting. Hopefully this will change soon, hopefully... Actually today Ilario asked me if I wanna go to an IT fair but I just didn't wanna join them. It's rather pointless ya? Going there to look at stuffs when you have no money, by the way I don't have money for even a bottle of water.

Last stupid paper

Damn today I went to school too damn early with ultraman, taking taxi to school today...Crap it was like $4.50? I think. Sms-ed Yenn and found out the freaking paper starts at 2pm (=_=). We went home then came again. Today's the last paper...Everybody was like so freaking happy, relieved, after the last paper everybody was like jeering. For me hmm? I don't feel anything...After went out with W.J.,Neal & Ilaro to Tampines mall, window shopping. I went to pierce his ear....Damn ouch! After home then to cousin's house for some BBQ session...Well I'm here tired, kinda... Going home soon anyway.

It has been raining...Since last week? Weather's pretty cold...I love it. I love the cold seasons, even though it's bad for me nose. To my opinion the cold season are pretty much romantic season of the year...Well I know you may think it's stupid...Ya maybe it is...Well it's just a stupid opinion of mine...

When's Jack ass gonna get his big fat arse back here?! Jack you better get your ass moving! And this time you better pass your drivin test! I'm treatening you.

Pieces

I'm gonna cram alittle later doing maths and art before I'm gonna be roasted again...Jack called me a while ago felt alittle more de-stressed, Jack is always just so nice to everyone, sometimes I think even if there is a naked girl right infront of him seducing him he won't even do a thing...*laughs* Well don't get me wrong that I have the hots for him or what, let me make this clear Jack and I are uber best friends. Life's been pretty weird with me, well thats my life... Felt so uptight these days...Sometimes you just wanna know about things, but sometimes when you just know too much that you feel sick...So sick that you feel like drowning yourself with alcohol, fortunately I did not do that. Yenn and I haven't been hanging up lately, this void feeling arose, I missed her...

I don't know why I keep on having this feeling for this someone, which I already made up my mind for not loving or liking anyone of the opposite sex. Because it always hurts to love someone especially quietly, as what had happen to me in the past it hurts me still. I know I'm stupid maybe I'm even the most stupidest person ever existed on this face of this planet. I had a crush on this guy for a 3 days, but I can't escape the fact that now at times I still think of him...It really sucked, one sided love is ain't fun at all. I really do not know those kiddies these day I don't know why they wanna make themself so uptight, loving someone yet that someone don't like him or her rah blah blah, trying to complicate things, trying to make themself so sophisicated,complicated and all, thinking it's fucking cool. But you know what to me it is fucking hilarious, that I wanna roll on the floor laughing till my abs cram up for weeks.

My blog is rather a M-18 due to the excessive use of vulgarities. Well thats me, if you can't accept it's your mofo problem. I find the fuck word rather expressive, it expresses wrath,love,sex,happiness everything rolled into one...I'm not borned to please people, I live by my own rules. Don't get me wrong I'm still a good person *V sign on the finger*

4 more papers to go, yay!~ Freedom is comming...Time to get stylish...I'm gonna have my own makeover I'm dying hair blue one side and black another and then maybe red highlights...Nah, I think I wanna do something like Hyde's it's rather interesting, I'll just change the blonde and brown to blue and red braid and hair extentions and shades of blue highlights here and there...Hmm let me get you a picture...

Damn...I just can't wait, oh shit I also forgot something everything needs money ahahaha!

Oh and anybody knows what brand is that guitar acoustic guitar Hyde always uses? What brand is it?

I would really appreciate if someone could tell me, drop me a message on the shout box, if problem occurs please send me a email then. Thank you, thank you, thank you, merci, domo arigato gozaimusta, xie xie, kum xia,terima kasiah!

Peace
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Background

New background, new music...How you guys like it? Well I love it very much of course, featuring my hyde and one of my favourite song. Damn I sound like some kid...Yuck...Anyway, man I'm freaking happy, this is the hmmm 4th or 5th blog background I've done by myself, eh ok nothing to boast about. Alot of people nowdays make their own blogskins...Oh well back to my own life, I've very important exams on going now, yet I'm still taking it in my pace still not studying and all...It's like a person who seeks death therefore does not afraid of death anymore, yeah this is something similar to my case. I've been failing so much I don't fear failing anymore, ok I know this is bad...Well it's too late now, take it with the flow...There is always other time yeah? I know you guys maybe thinking, man you changed very much since when your in sec 1 or primary school and maybe a little disgusted or having bad feelings about me. I've got nothing to say, I don't mean to say that everybody is mean or what so ever, I know how people feel...They might have thought that I've become a wild child or something. Well people changes, anyway I was never a wild child and never will be, I never liked being wild...Yeah my personality is never wild but I wild with my dressing, don't worry I will always be me. I will always be the same old person. It's just that, I really do not have the talents in studying I find it really a pain in the ass, but of course art was never a pain in the ass, words can't describe my love for art. Now all I can try to achieve is to try to get into an art school after this complicated crap O level exam, my childhood dream was to be a designer until now...A dream is a dream, my mom doesn't support me not that she's being mean or what, she just wants me to get a course and finally a job which could fill my rice bowl. Anyway it is really tough to be in the fashion industry these days especially in Singapore...Here is like there is no room for creativity, ok if I'm wrong here correct me ok...I'm so uptight now, really don't know what to do...Oh well thats life, nothing ever goes your way...

So ok take care for now