I hate school...Hmm for now?

School holiday is gone, with a blink of an eye...I'm waiting to be 'fried' tomorrow :) ...Homeworks are only 30% done. Nevermind, I've got my classmates to be 'fried' with me...

The ulcer at the back of my mouth is recovering...Here's a picture how it look like one week ago...Beware the picture looks a little disgusting...


Meet up with my long lost friend,Val on Friday, accompanied her to the Hair Salon to get her hair done...Waited for 2 hours with her there...Then we went shopping, eh window shopping for me...After she treat me dinner at Fish and Co. Dinner was sumptious! The drink she ordered was really huge, and the name was sharky something, interesting name....Here's a pic...


Did nothing for saturday but took a nice random picture of the clouds outside my house...Take a peek...


Anyway, nothing much for today...Got tuition ask usual, boring...Tried to complete the math worksheet given by my teacher but of course I'm not able to finish it...My aunt then treat me dinner, prawn noodles and bought some local delicacies-kueh for me...Then we went for a joy ride, somewhere near but not really near my house(Eh do you get it?), the Changi airport...Ah here's a picture I just took...Enjoy~
So anyway thats all for today be right back tomorrow on the 'frying' thing...

The Cape of Storm

Another uber song to share, from the same guy...Hyde...

Hyde's The Cape of Storm

So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up
Lost in the raging sea

So where has love gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms
Echoes the pain I feel inside

You'll never notice
The colour of sin
Just as the storm clouds close in
It's dark

Here in the shadows
I am pursued
Until the ends of the earth
Embraced

The ghost ship wanders far
For there is no guiding star
And this treasure
Has no meaning anymore

So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up
Lost in the raging sea

So where has love gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms
Echoes the pain I feel inside

You know completely
The taste of sin
Melting sweet in your mouth
Like chocolate

A moment of pleasure
You are fulfilled
But every dream has its time
To die

The ghost ship wanders far
For there is no guiding star
And this treasure
Has no meaning anymore
Will this be my fate?

So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up
Lost in the raging sea

So where has love gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms
Echoes the pain I feel inside...

Angel's Tale

I came across this uber song just wanna share...

Hyde's Angel's Tale

Here in my heart
Memories linger
I hold them sacred Safe from all others
Angel's tale

A love such as this
Once in a lifetime lost in your beauty
Still dreaming of you
Angel's tale

You drove the sinner from me
And shone with such glory
Touching me softly
My breath torn away
Wrapped in a silver veil
Under skies so pale
Trembling as i watched you
One holy night
Angel

Snow can be warm
Didn't can know that?
Just like a snowflake
Falling from heaven
Angel's tale

I kept my feelings from you
the heavens divide us
I onged to tell you
All my heart's desire
If only i had wings
Wings as white as yours
Up into the sky
I'd surely fly
Angel

Ahh Yes, on such snowy nights
Memories revive
Your eternal flame
Burning again
secret

Here in my heart
Memories linger
I hold them sacred
Safe from all others
Angel's tale

*This song may not be your cup of tea, because it's jazzy

The great battle of fever and flu

After 2 days of the battle against the fever and flu virus, I've finally won the battle erm...of course....And all these result in thick mucus filled nose and a stupid mouth ulcer...Have an ulcer sucks big time, especially it is at behind the wisdom tooth gum area...Swallowing, sneezing, speaking too loudly is a now a very big problem, the part below my jaw right below my ulcer is swollen alittle...

I don't know what is there to feel sad about or what so ever, making a big fuss about what wrong with the teens here they are like sinking into depresssion for fun making this image that they are sophisticated inside blah blah blah...This is all so stupid. I don't mean that falling in love, having a crush on someone is something wrong...yeah sure I've gone through it too, I'm a teen too yeah...The thing I can't understand is that why they always wanna be tied up or be troubled by this complicated thing called love, can't they love other things? Like their parents, pets or maybe friends...Even so if they are broke up there are still many fishes in the ocean and can get them easily duh, not like he or she is your one and only one. Every realationship will end eventually, because this is just puppy love, infatuation which will not last... I'm not saying every relationship will end. Argh...This is rather complicated to voice it out...What I wanna say to the teens in Singapore is stop being sad over minor minor things, it is not end of the world...It is really pathetic, idioltic and stupid to be in depression because of this stupid love thing. Stop being a person who your not thinking your so deep, sophisitcated when your so not. There are much more unfortunate people out there who are having much more problem then you are, open up your eyes instead of complaining, making a fuss about how heart broken you are...

As you can see I'm always sinking in to light depressing mood...Thats me that is how things works in my life. You don't know what I've been through, I know very much I do have a almost perfect family but I go through 'things' that you wouldn't wanna go through. So don't think you know me very much because what you see is only on the surface...

Unwell

*Sniff sniff*...I'm officially down with flu...The flu symptoms going on and off, it has been happening since last week...Now I'm suffering from headache, sore throat and also from mucus filled nose...Anyway yesterday, had some fun... Went drinking with aunt, I drank something which looks like orange juice but it is not...Taste nice...And after drank beer...WAHAHAHA~ Forgive me today, I've got a little mental abberation due to my sickness...Hmmm or is it just 'me'? I'm finishing my 2nd huge cup of water, gonna get my 3rd one very soon...And waiting for nature call :P

Knot tying

Just got back not long from my mum's friend's daughter wedding at Mandrin hotel...Woots poshy~ The atmosphere there was really great, decos were made up by flowers...I loved the atmosphere...Things happens so fast it was like 10 years ago this person was still holding me(I was a baby that time) and now she's getting married...I haven't see her for sooo long, searching for her face in my fragments of memories which all seems so vague. It is now like error: file not found...When is my turn? Maybe not? Let fate decide...The photographer was facinated with my camera, toggling with it after taking the group photo...I guess he likes my camera~ XD...

Nice deco right?


Random pic, woots poshy~

Runaway

Sometimes I just wish that I could runaway from my dad bringing my mum along, my mum also had enough of him...His attitude and all, I can't understand what the hell he is thinking. Like as if he would like to see me in a tormenting state he would be so really happy. Not allowing me to do this that what so ever, putting timmer on the computer and TV it switches off at 10P.M., I don't mind if the computer must be switched off at 10P.M. for God's sake let my have the TV! My TV programs all starts at later than 10P.M. plus it is the holidays. If I want to sleep late, just let me be, if I wanna die just let me...It's my life...I am so gonna smash up the timmer box, plus I am gonna cut off all the wire to the TV very soon mutilating it and distoring it. I bet he will be so fxxxing pissed because this is his few source of entertainment. And yeah not forgetting the computer's wire too, and I'm gonna get my own PC not allowing him to use it at all. So hah! He have nothing to use eh ok including me who cares my friends all live near me I could use a computer with just a phone call away. TV who needs TV when the TV programs all suck. Oh yeah anyway on wenesday when my dad asked me to wake up, when I was about to open my eyes to answer him, he KICKED me! Oh how 'nice'! Thanks I'll remeber that!
I feel like cutting myself, unable to express the anger damn!

It is just misunderstanding

I finally know how much I meant to them...Although I have lost my most precious friend of all, I gained 2 more...She always claims that I am her her best friend and all, but the harsh reality she is just decepting me, again and again, I'm really tired...I always looked up, so proud of you and this is what I get?! But at least now I know who are the bunch of people who really cared for me...

Anyway, what happened these past few days are just misunderstandings. I'm the one to blame, stupid me I 'm just so sensitive...I'm really sorry to cause you all so much pain, torments and anguish...I'm just being selfish all along what you for only myself and no one else. But at least I got all of you back right, and our friendsip maybe alittle much stronger. Thinking back they really be there for me when I really needed someone...

I'm sorry

I am really sorry for all the unhappiness caused to all...So that is why now I have decided to be alone, everything alone things will be much simple...Sorry if I'm being mean...Loneliness is probably inborned in me I can't change it or take it away...All along I have asked too much...I think the very wrong thing in my is I always wanted attention, yeah I think I am much of a attention seeker...

I got my wallet back :), I lost it on friday...Went swimming with my friends X.C. & H...Good everything is "intact"...

So nothing much for this week..Boring as ever...As usual there's remidial in school tomorrow...Gotta go peeps dad's nagging...

Total friends annihilation...

I just deleted most of my 'friends' in msn messanger and friendster too...I see it through today, what are friends for when I already got myself...I am already quite used to the loneliness...Now I just wish I could feel totally numb, neither feeling hurt or pain or confusing...Now my world is filled with anarchy...Now I just don't know to cry,to be angry, to laugh...Now I just wanna punch the mirror...I don't wanna see myself...Maybe I am just a mistake...I should not be existing at the first place, that is why I am such a misfit...Maybe I am not totally seasoned to the feeling of loneliness because what happened today is because I was sorta ignored, or maybe should I say ignored...My mind is a really confusing thing, I can't never understand what it is thinking about...I always thought I know what my mind was thinking about but no many situations I found out, I did not know it at all...Friends alwyas says they are for me and all...Yeah probably I am being sensitive afterall...Am I? I don't know I don't know...I don't wanna know...Who cares about it now...I will never regret what I do...