Shhhh...!~

Shhh...Quiet!~ Anyway I am in the library now, at Marine Parade...Quite stressed up now, got alot to study for the stupid yet important exam. With Yenn and Jack ass, here just now want to buy some comics and bought a repeated volume no.7 of Strawberry channel, feel like crashing myself onto a wall! I've wasted $6 on that...I think I need someone to help me with my studies alot, but will !!!??? Yap I got Yenn and Jack but I need someone who is clever enough, (not saying that they are not clever enough) to revise and guide me with my studies...Now I am studying Nazi Germany and this is only one chapter of 4 chapters I'm so dead plus there are also sub chapters to be worse, I got some very important Art exam project to hand in next week which I have to do some research and stuffs you know like preparetory work and I did not even started and also there is also other subjects to revise. Now, I think I could not even promote for next year because I am not consistent enough in my studies. Feeling very dead meat, confused, scared, irritated and stressed. By the way I've been praying for the people I care for lately(still praying). Hmmm I guess this is what I have got in my mind wish me more luck then, and hope there is some miracle happening in this exam...Hopefully....Ja...

Break free..

Hi peeps...Back again blogging, since I am here so why not make use of the computer and blog ya! Anyway, it's been a really worrying,stressful,confusing week...Feared that someone know that I had a crush on him blah blah thing, not that I did not want him to know just that if he really knew that I had a crush on him...It would turn out ugly, awakard...Hey guess what I think I sorta break free from that stupid stupid BGR thingy, I think it's really stupid...I stopped thinking of him and stopped having feelings for him though sometimes he pops out of my head randomly, but just a thought only so it's all right right? Hmmm...I guess I am happy the way I am now, being ignored, lonely and depressing and somewhat suicidal(But not to the extend of killing myself just thoughts)...But at least I got someone up there to talk to and also my mum is always there to talk to too...But sometimes It's hard to talk to both of them, I want immediate reply(from above), and sometimes my mum and I there is a generation gap thingy. What I want now is just a friend who really could be there whenever, I really meant whenever I really needed he/she to be there...But hey thanks Jack sometimes your there for me as a friend supporting me in cosplay and lots of stuffs...Anyway I think that all I have in my freaking head now...So byez...Be back blogging next time...

Home sweet home

Going home soon when the clock ticks to 7:00pm, my exams are comming guess now is the time I have to give all I've got...Anyway so I guess I would not be posting and stuffs this month and the next maybe, afew not that often. Anyway, I soon I'll be having my own private room so glad. Finally I could plan and design the way I like it to be, the must have in my room is a hi-fi set and a soft yellow/orange lamp not too bright and also new curtains.Guess thats all I wanted to say...And finally I have released my feelings for him, I let it go...Maybe this would make me alittle happier or maybe not...

Lazy Hazy Saturday...

Feeling tired now, don't know whether to go to sleep or what. So happy that my parents came over here and see me...Hmmm...I need some $$$ to get some new clothes, I keep on wearing the same clothes again and again very boring and idoltic. Anyway school life now is busy yet not busy now days, but still cool I am still hanging on, although on friday my somewhat close friends not in school, so sad and lonely...But never mind life somewhat goes on...Really lost interest in what I enjoy doing, I like, I love (including him) and all don't know why, maybe just confused or just tired to think about those stuff , sometimes it gets in my nerve thinking about it(He is adorable though). *thinks* I guess there is something little wrong with me nowdays I love tying my hair on one side like some idoltic little girls...