Sad sad sad happy happy happy!

Past few days...
tears
tears
tears tears and more tears
but...
smiled eventually.
Christmas eve was bad in the afternoon.
Not so bad at night.
Food,food more food.
Alcohol,alcohol,alcohol...
Plain martini burns my throat.
Christmas day
church
look for guitar...
CLOSED CLOSED CLOSED.
Chilled at Jack's place
till 2pm+ ...wacky wacky wacky, total madness
dressed up.
Monday, look up for guitars again.
CLOSED CLOSED CLOSED,
they must as well closed all their lives.
Well for today worked...
Busy busy...
bored till almost fell asleep, wahahaha.
Sleepin'...
peace.
*nods nods fell on floor sleeping*

Fuck you all

Have not been saying fuck
long time since I've visted the church.
I should say, everything is always...
so fucked.
Friends?!
They can just fuck the toilet bowl
and flush themself off.
Wanted to quit because
of them I as wanna spent more time with them,
not arsed about it so well let it be.
At least I work my ass off,
money
the only loyal true friend
I only have.
The long lonely road,
I walk it by myself...
Jack...
Hong Kong,
worse,
I just wanna laugh.
It's so funny.
I'm laughing till I'm crying
How funny.
ahahaha.
So funny.
Why am I crying?
She not going ,
he not coming,
he don't know wants to come anot,
yeah yeah yeah.
Fuck all of you.
Money is my only best, true, faithful friend.

X.C. birthday!
I think I made her day bad.
I went out so late with her.
B came was quite happy,
can't deny, but still hurts me to feel that way...
But I still love them 2 alot.
Platforms.
My feet hurts alittle though.
Got her a peach tart,
she's filled...
stick the huge candle on the top,
not able to stand on the peach.
Somehow managed to,
stayed for quite a while
but fall eventually.
They thought it was gonna burn me wahaha!
Beach as ok,
sticky,
sinking shoe in the sand
We took great pictures.
Fun minus my shoe.
Saw B's family.
Went with her parents.
X.C.,
Me,
talked so much I felt the gap was disappearing.
was it good or bad?
I wanna smack Ilario!
Kiss, hug
Yenn...
Misses her dearly.
Err.... did I miss out anyone?
Ok I did NOT
AHAHAHA! :p
I shall dye my hair without my mum knowing

1st pay cheque

Uber tired.
Not enough sleep.
Whole week.
Thanks God it's friday.
First pay cheque. X.C. hatches.
Cherries are nice,
especially pink ones?
Well it's cute for her. I'm anti-pink.
3 swimming shorts is nice for him,
but it's 70 -80 bucks...
Consider shoes?
I wanna get that for her but it's 63.
I'll get her Swarovski then.
Wanna get him a thing but no enough.
Feeling guilty getting everyone something,
yet he gets a painting from me.
He's really sweet, he's my sweet arse.
He is a blackie papa.
I'm so gonna call him that!
I love my angels the 3 of them.
I shall name them Xyza's Angels.
Watch out they are gonna kick ya ass.
My angels are hot hot hot.
I love my black white striped zebra socks.*Smell*
Smells spiffyly new.
Something for dad...
Something for mum...
I love both alot.

Chalet~~~

Someone has a friend who is a pain in the arse...
Horny bastard.
Rot in HELL.
Ugly fat arse ain't my friend.
Count himself lucky, mirror doesn't break when he look into.
If it break, it will cut him distorting his cock sucking face.
Everyone will insult, so bad he comits suicide.
And stay in hell for eternity.
Nothing better to do, picking fights with a girl.
I bet he only has a 1.5, straw like dick.
Shit, I'm too mean, I shall rephrase it he is dickless.
Tired to quarrel.

Enough money?
Presents for friends and family?
Christmas is coming...
Hope to be with my good friends.


Chalet was fun.
Though it was a failure.
Swam with Ernie. Ernie bathe the longest yet he blamed that I bathe the longest.
Maybe both of us was long.
Nothing better to do.
Pull out matresses, and screamed eeeee...
Matress was spermified.
WTF!

Shit

You wanna know how I feel now?
I'm feeling like a shit...
Work...
Parents..
Etc...
Everything to me now I see it as a pain in the ass...
"Hang on." I must say to myself everyday. Quit? Hell yeah! Contradicting feelings.
Parent's favourite word -> "NO!."
You can blabber all you want saying parents are good and stuffs.
Don't ask me to put myself in their shoe, how about me ain't I human too? I have a mind and feelings, I'm aint dead yet.
Female, the problem lies that because I'm just a female right?
Rape,molested,sold,ho,crack ho,slavery?
Female population is always the victim.
Dick...I need a dick to get the freedom I always longed for?
Damn why ain't I borned a male?
Now I'm thinking going for a sex change...Is that possible?
Being a female isn't easy at all...
Love, Being beautiful, social circle...etc.

-bath break-

*Runs out towel wrapped*
Cold day, huh?
Sure it is...
Tomorrow?
What do I do? I shall go with the flow.
Swimming.
Must get that finger guard!

Going to bed soon...
Shit, my hair smells like food...

Ficky

Am I still going?
I am I am not I am I am not I am I am not I am I am not I am I am not I am I am not I am I am not....I don't know...
Oh fuck, where did little Maki go?

Oh never mind I shall continue painting my nails...
Lalala shit! I'm bored.

I shall secrety get my hair dye later...
I'm in dilema which color?
Red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red black red.

Oh foodie!!! Bye

Tried = Feeling high

Someone so close could be a pain in the arse...
"Don't dye your hair it's not good."
Like as if, a blue moon of hair dying can send me to my coffin.
"I will allow you to buy only if it is brown."
Brown?! Are you kidding me? It's not my cuppa tea. Brown is too standard, normally liked by the fellow female juvenille deliquents here in Singapore, it grosses me out.
"Black blue looks ugly on you, rah blah blah."
Do you think I care a fuck shit other might say? Sorry unfortunately I don't I'm not borned to make every single one happy. By the way whose are I'm dying?
Makes a big fuss and scene, while I'm controling my temper. Oh fuck! Not again.
You know what...Heck my arse couldn't care less.
Oh well never mind thats good, no black blue, fresh blood red is cute.

I wonder how is it like to look up the people again, I bet it's wicked shit.
There's cosplay convention tomorrow, ok it's today.
Wish me luck man.
Wooo my cute ass tells me it needs luck too.
Why am I in such a mood, I find it intriguing myself.
I'm feeling high? Because I'm tired.
Thats normal for me, let me remind you I'm abnormal.

Sometimes I wanna scream FUCK!

She's ok actually, sometimes could be misinterpreted. As hostility... Well this is only the work part.
Last 2 days...
In the stupid train...
I've got stunk...
Foul smelling ammonia stinko man...
Almost slept on as a pillow...
Good new I'm irritated again,finally I've seen the fattest goth alive...Maybe the ugliest?
Doesn't look cool at all...
It's(oops I've forgot she's human) rather bouncy...
Attention seeking by saying FUCK loudly...
MIC ain't needed man...
X.C. told me to slap her...
She can just shove herself into,
the toilet bowl.
Stupid friends has been alienating again FUCK them all.
Things lately has been pissing me off, testing my limits.
Explosion in process...

Money monday~~~
Endure and money will be on door step.
iPod baby will be mine.
Making of Nana a must buy.
Oh my!~ x3 Corpse bride set is a must collect.
Going to get tattoos asap.
Hair dyed when longer.
Cosplay is tomorrow's tomorrow.
Promised Maki.

The easiest way to make me pissed is...
Don't reply me 3~5 times when I send you a message.
And don't worry, next time on the streets or even online you say "hi!" to me I won't give a fuck damned to hi back to you anymore. Just kiss my arse.

Have fun making me pissed.

I hate work.

Working is a pain in the arse. Doing something bored for 5-6 days a week... I was so close from quitting. Haha a movie I wanted to watch, but is forced to go sleep...Having throat infection now? Nah I don't I have that, stupid phelm got stuck in my voice box...The feeling of screaming FUCK at the top of my voice. Nice rosey smelling nails*smell nails*...Can I eat?

How nice it will be...If I could just run away from this crap...