Total friends annihilation...

I just deleted most of my 'friends' in msn messanger and friendster too...I see it through today, what are friends for when I already got myself...I am already quite used to the loneliness...Now I just wish I could feel totally numb, neither feeling hurt or pain or confusing...Now my world is filled with anarchy...Now I just don't know to cry,to be angry, to laugh...Now I just wanna punch the mirror...I don't wanna see myself...Maybe I am just a mistake...I should not be existing at the first place, that is why I am such a misfit...Maybe I am not totally seasoned to the feeling of loneliness because what happened today is because I was sorta ignored, or maybe should I say ignored...My mind is a really confusing thing, I can't never understand what it is thinking about...I always thought I know what my mind was thinking about but no many situations I found out, I did not know it at all...Friends alwyas says they are for me and all...Yeah probably I am being sensitive afterall...Am I? I don't know I don't know...I don't wanna know...Who cares about it now...I will never regret what I do...