time when you need help the most,
people who you called friends, won't fucking bother to help you out.
im in serious distress in what to do now.
i really really do not want to fail, and let my parents down.
im not as smart or clever,
designing is only what i can do.
im not studying this for fun, or throwing this $3500 away for nuts.
i would like to go parsons one day and be an acclaimed designer.
this drives me to go on in life.

okok im overreacting, pardon me ok.
i just don't wanna fail or repeat or any of this kind of shit to happen,
im in total anxiety.