This can't go on,
I need to sleep
enough sleep.

I'm doing things like a zombie,
everything is so vague and blur to me.




Ever thought of loving someone,
and your truely being loved in return?
Thought of it quite oftenly
recently. . .
whats wrong with me?
is it my motherly instincts overpowering me?
or am I turning into those loser loveholic people. . .
thinking that only male and female relationship only exist,
in this planet.
I do know.
That's why I cherish my parents,
my mum more :P
But the more you love,
it hurts damn much when they say those 'words'.



I'm a person. . .
who will
inflict pain
or doing something harmful to myself,
in any cases emotional 'pain'



First time(I don't mean that),
I always imagine it to be perfect.
Well *笑* I don't think so
a picky person and a perfectionist like me
tough luck.
But anywaes I like guys who are 173cm and above :P
I guess everybody is just too short for me.
Stereotype of tall guys comes with broad shoulders.
I tend to fall for androgynous but
with this really manly personality.
and there is this manly look I can distinguish,
from the others.
I don't care what others think,
love is blind - sometimes



We are in a inperfect world,
no one is perfect
no one is flawless
you have a good family, your family is poor
your family is rich, but is so 'broken'
your beautiful, your personality's shit
your ugly, everyone loves you -depends?
you may have everything and think your
a perfect human being,
well thinking about this it is already a flaw.
humble is the way of life
learn to accommodate and compromise
it's hard to thrive/adapt in this harsh reality
being inflexible is not wise.
In fact being a real fool.

My little stupid theory of mine ends here.