I don't know anymore

Everything's fine now. As always I sitll dislike my dad. As for my mum, she said she's gonna try moving out and live on her own. Used to say she wanna live with me but now...So I see she's leaving me with my dad...WHAT IS SHE THINKING?! I don't talk to my dad anymore, I can't even stand the sight of him. You want me to live with him?!...Over my dead body. I rather live somewhere else. I'm still living here right now is because my mum is with me or else I'll be somewhere else, and of course I'll prolly have no chance to blog.

I've packed most of my stuffs already, yesterday I stayed up really late to pack them all...I went to be at 3:30+ AM, which means I only left about + - 3 hours to sleep...Then she keeps on asking me this and that, where I'm gonna shift to and all...And finally she said, she's not shifting...WHAT?! Wasted my time doing all this crap...Why can't she be decisive, firm...So fickle minded...I'm not like insitgating them to seperate or what so ever, but if you were in my position you'll think the same as me...

About the other day, when I was smashing the timmer box, he came out and sorta like astonished, shock to see what I did. He did not stop me at first because he was like *jaws dropped on the floor* then I continued (his jaws dropped to the floor because he never see me doing this ever)...Then he snatched the hammer from me...OK this is weird he did not slap me...The thing irritated me is my mum she's like calling everybody she knows and tell them what did I do...Then after they went to bed, I ran out...Meet up with buddy Yenn, she called Wayne out too. Drank the whole night through, we talked...Of course thanks Yenn for always being with me when I'm down. Having someone to listen to your problems, lend you a shoulder if you needed support. This is a real best and true friend that I could ever have...

Again thanks Yenn...

I suddenly feel like crying now...Can someone tell me why? Why am I always like this...So embrassing, so weak and useless...I really hope my emotions are removed. Emotions just make humans weak. Useless thing...