Disappear

I really hurts to love someone even your parents, I love my mum so much she gives me this shit. Why she don't kill me when I'm borned, like as I said the conversation just now when I was out with my mum. I think the world is better off with me and I'm better off without it. I so feel like mutilating myself again, anyway I did it already I used a pair of sissors to slit my arm, not hard enough though. I hate being emotion, I hate being sad...So useless so weak, I just wish God jsut could take away my emotions. Like in the past, I can't really feel any love towards anyone seriously anywaone. I wish that I could just disappear, somehow...I don't mean dying...I mean like just disappear...I don't know anymore...I'm have fucking headaches...And I think world war 3 with my mum is gonna start...Starts with her complaining to my dad...Prolly...

Anyway when my computer's timer goes off, I'm gonna stand up, grab the hammer and smash the timmer box with a hammer,of course. I'm so gonna be slapped by my dad :)