feelin' lethargic...

Today, we have four periods free because I am neither taking design and technology or food and nutrition...I take 6 subjects altogether...So today feels short...Had an excursion to another school to look at their last year's O level examination art work...WHOA! They are really good and I think I cannot achieve it, now I don't think I can even get a B3...Don't know why today more lonely than all the other days...Maybe because the girl who is in the art class with me is always with her boyfriend...Can't blame them, maybe I should really try to be alone and independent...Now chatting in the msn is not the same again, the friends I used to chat alot replys me only like a very short sentence like 1-3 words only, not even like sentence...Maybe I should get use to this...I guess everbody will soon turn like this...I wonder if I have any attitude problem because I can't seem to make friends though I tried very hard to be like one of them and what they expects of me, trying to get closer to them they just making this invincible barrier and like keep pushing me away and like ignoring me... I asked Yenn whether I do have a problem, she say nope that is why she is still hanging out with me...Felt relieved...I think they are the people who dosen't worth my time or commitment of being friends with. I am not trying to say that I don't have any attitude problems or I am perfect, I may have a bit of a problem and I do have a few personalities and after all I am a human I am not perfect or flawless. I am not being deperate to have friend it is just that I hope there is someone who I can hang out with and can be friends and do fun things together like maybe going to the movies or like just hang out together a good memory or something, because the secondary school life is already not a good memory for me...

I found out that some people who have attitude problem have a very hard time making friends, even they just wanting to chat with the others it is already a big problem...Because people just dislikes the way they talk to people or there is just this negative energy of this attitude person makes people feels negative towards them. People with attitude problem always this that they are like almost perfect, they thinks that their this so called 'concept' is correct but typically wrong...Hmmm no it's very very wrong, that is why it is hard to interact with this kind of attitude people...So if they wanna have friends they will just have to start changing themselves first, stop thinking too highly of themselves and all those stupid 'concepts', and let nature takes it course...

Feeling rather lethargic now better get some 'beauty sleep'...