Random Craps...

Hey...I'm back...I did not go anywhere in this holiday I meant travel ya just to Pulau Ubin but it is still an island in Singapore so it's not counted although I have to get there by boat. Went there to cycle with some of my relatives...Damn there were wild dogs and monkeys, scared me a little because I feared that they back 'stab' you when your not looking. Weekdays, I stay at home playing The Sims 2 the whole day, sometimes even saturday and sunday too...Soon I think I may turn blind serious! Now my eyes are kinda tired and my left eye is itching. And I think soon I would need to get a pair of glasses or contact lenses.My left eye could not see as properly as my right eye...Hopefully I not going blind or what so ever,damn I am really freaked out...I am getting weird these days I'm just like a vampire, but I am not dead,not fair and dosen't suck blood(But I do like the tiny little bit taste of blood,I am little 'sick' I know).Is it that I just do not want to sleep or I can't sleep?. I missed my friends Kiki, Zimah, Muii, Ilario, Jack 'S', Hurricane a.k.a Muii's Lao Da(Jasper), Eddie Guerro(Jia Ping), Randy(Hou Yun) & Eugene(Lenz) and the good old days, and I also miss my cousin too. By the way I don't miss any other people I did not mention here because I have not many friends anyway and the others don't really treat me as a friend I guess although sometimes they lend me their stuff and I lend them my stuff, these are only on the surface, they are not the people who let me feel welcome, yet let me feel ignored and left out and also lost.I am not being sensitive or what this is what I really felt because they made me right? People say I am sensitive, am I? I guess I don't wanna know, as long as I have a handful of friends it is enough.The thing I feared the most is, the friends I cared and cherish the most don't really give much thought about me.Or am I being too sensitive? Or I did not put enough effort to make it work? Or am I not good enough,nice enough,friendly enough,funny enough,fun enough,outgoing enough,wise enough,knowledegeable enough,witty enough,interesting enough,unique enough,cool enough,beautiful enough,pretty enough,adorable enough,great enough to be cared to be cherished...I asked myself these questions lots of times.Most people are like in my aquaintence department as I mention last time, like The Sims...Aquaintence,Friends,Best Friends,Crush,Steady,Love,Enemy...This makes me think if I have any enemy, I think I do not have any...I just dislike people ya not like hate or something just plain dislike.Because either they are not being themselves or they have problems with their attitude. And another thing I don't know why people like calling themselves BITCH, bitch means a female dog,something low down than human why they want to be that or want to be call as that? I would be pissed to be called that, like Jack always call like calling me that and I hate it! Although I know he called me that for fun. Okay I think I am done here with my theories of some craps and shits, waiting for my mask to dry so I can hop of to sleep. ~End~