It's a Miracle

Got back my very important exam result...You know what I just passed how lucky am I...Now I really know the importance of studying, but the thing that I think that is really stupid is that we study just to earn that stupid papers and took so long to learn everything! In the end we die everything is gone, we came came totally naked and go totally naked. I know the paper could bring us jobs, but I still feel very weird about it. Been really blaming myself these days for this and that especially the exam thing. Some of the girls cried after getting back their results, this is expected. I went to get my result I felt I'm ready I am totally prepared till, when the teacher started calling the people to get their result, I kind burst into cold sweats I really freaked out...I guess no matter how prepared am I will be still scared about it. When my ex-form teacher congrads me on promoting, I felt totally stunned. Guess next year I am gonna be really really very very isolated, Jack S will be going to Australia for his studies, Muii is outta school the other guys will be outta this school too...They are the only friends that I am close to in school. What am I to do? Anyway this year my class has 17 pupils(interesting right?) and guess what next year there will be only 6 promoting(which includes me) and therefore the others will either be retaining or going to some other collages. So my so called class now will be merging with the class I hated the most, the people there suck big time...So next year there will be probably about 38 or 40 + pupils in the new merger class. And the thing which made me really happy about is the principal which I really disliked is transfering to other school YAY! Don't have to listen to crappy assembly talks which is so freaking boring...



Guess what, I still do have feeling for that guy. I felt a little jealous and a mixture of sadness and hopelessness when I found out that the girl somewhat got close to him...Feeling really tired about this stiuation...Really tired...My friends tells me to confess it but I really just can't, just think of the consequences and the feeling of rejection...I hope I am born without feelings, just like a cold blooded thing...I really hurts you to love someone, it hurts alot alot...



Hey really tired here I only slept for four hours today, so thats all I have for today I am going for hibernation now...Au Revoir...