Itai!~

How do I numb the pain inside and outside? I cut my self again, it felt pain at first but felt itchy after awhile...There is quarrels lately I hate it, its not all my fault right? Ya admit I did some mistakes but you don't have to treat me like this...Nagging at me, scolding me, shouting at me...Do you know it hurts alot more then the cuts I have on my arm...Even the scars heal physically it leaves a mark that reminds me...


I'm getting a computer soon...Hoping to get Alienware ALX com, it's really a love at first sight, I swear one day I would get it, if I remeber...It's really difficult to get a almost good already fixed computer, all those in the market kinda sucks or maybe really sucky because the graphic card are really lousy offering ATI Radeon X300SE without the PCI thingy and now most people using the better ones...


Trying to save up lots of money to celebrate my best friend's birthday...She's my best friend for already 7 Years, and she still is...Thinking of getting her The Sims 2 Dvd special edition or the normal Sims 2 and also getting something useful for her...Gosh I'm really hungry now nothing to eat over here, I haven't ate my breakfast and lunch. I just ate a banana and swallowed a few vitamin pills...Feel like eating some fish congee or XXL crispy chicken...Better not say anymore I'm making myself really hungry...