Life is oh so ironic

When I am starting to like my class, my classmates(some) it's time for us to part and go our own ways. Exams are over I feel relieved and also happy, ironically I feel sad and depress at the same time knowing that we would not be able to see each other anymore. Now I am starting to think about the good old days and it makes my feel like crying, I am not exaggerating if you're in my shoes you would feel sad too...I guess the comming years I would feel more lonely and more ignored, although I got my parents and Lord above I need friends so that I would not feel lost in this world, someone who could be right beside of me anytime anyday whenever I needed them to be there, someone could listen to my pain, my sadness and even share my joy and happiness with me...I guess not. By the way, I am at my cousin house now you all should know, staying over today heh heh...Hmmm anyway there is a barbaque outside I guess someone is celebrate his/her birthday. I think I better stop talking bad about a person but sometimes it's really something I can't tolerate about, I just need to talk about it maybe not too much just to "enlighten" me or maybe not...I have painted my nails black again, but this times with glitters and top coat with chocolate smell and I feel like eating my nail LOL!~ My hair looks in better condition than before so happy. Been to lots of swimming these days is it good or bad? At least I don't get tanned at all the place is shady and the water is so freaking cold but yet cool because I went to my friend invited me to swim at her grandma's condo, and there is even a sauna which is so cool, once you go into that sauna you don't feel like comming out it's sooooo cozy there although it's warm and at times I can't breadthe LOLX!~ Guess I have that all in my mini brain now hehe bye bye...!~