Break free..

Hi peeps...Back again blogging, since I am here so why not make use of the computer and blog ya! Anyway, it's been a really worrying,stressful,confusing week...Feared that someone know that I had a crush on him blah blah thing, not that I did not want him to know just that if he really knew that I had a crush on him...It would turn out ugly, awakard...Hey guess what I think I sorta break free from that stupid stupid BGR thingy, I think it's really stupid...I stopped thinking of him and stopped having feelings for him though sometimes he pops out of my head randomly, but just a thought only so it's all right right? Hmmm...I guess I am happy the way I am now, being ignored, lonely and depressing and somewhat suicidal(But not to the extend of killing myself just thoughts)...But at least I got someone up there to talk to and also my mum is always there to talk to too...But sometimes It's hard to talk to both of them, I want immediate reply(from above), and sometimes my mum and I there is a generation gap thingy. What I want now is just a friend who really could be there whenever, I really meant whenever I really needed he/she to be there...But hey thanks Jack sometimes your there for me as a friend supporting me in cosplay and lots of stuffs...Anyway I think that all I have in my freaking head now...So byez...Be back blogging next time...