Highs & Lows

Let's see ok...I done painting most part of the canvas only leaving only the background out and I did not do the tonning, brought it back to my home hoping my mum could help me with the others and after putting the canvas at home I went to my classmates' "belated" birthday barbaque...It's ok at first but it became bored after that, I when to sit at the sand alone thinking about my problems, sick of thinking about it I looked at the waves and sky and the lights from the ships,boats and city. Went home after that...My aunt fetch me to and flow so now I thank her here! (Thanks!~) Anyway this all happends all yesterday...Today went out and catch and movie with my aunt and cousin, Spiderman 2...Quite a cool movie with all those CG, great story line too! Oh anyway came home and called my dad and he said he had a misunderstanding with mum...And I also asked about the canvas, as expected nothing is done, but of course it is my duty to finish it up but I needed some help ya? Kinda fed up with my mom, but I think it's very wrong of me...But why? Why you just can't stop saying something, I did not provoke you or make you angry normally...Why you want to dig up the past and talk about it making things more complicated? *Sigh* I don't know why but next time I will live here for the weekends to prevent anymore conflicts and misunderstand, it is also another metal tourture for me...Those words hurt me again and again, I hope that it would not be heard no more...Please stop...I can't take it anymore...

Hmmm anyway, wait for my special someone to come online finally he did, at least it is something it made me happy for a while . Today we chatted more than in the past...Sometimes I feel like an extra...Wanting to tell him how I feel but dared not, again feared to be avoided, *sigh* what can I do? Nothing....